I am 15 weeks and one day pregnant today.  I am probably too tired to be coherent, but I’m determined to get this post up tonight!

Baby is: the size of an orange, and can now control his/her own movements.  I’m still feeling them when I remember to pay attention and I’m trying to do that as much as I can, though I’ve been so busy it’s hard to do, but at night I can feel it and it’s nice.

I am: very tired – I know I have said that every week, but it’s still the only thing I can think of to say when people ask me how I am.  Really all I want to do is sleep, and if I ever lie down in the daytime I can fall asleep easily.  Not so much at night, unfortunately.

I have now seen the diabetic nurse, and got my blood testing kit, because I had gestational diabetes in my last pregnancy.  So far my levels have been fine, but the testing is a real nuisance and quite unpleasant.  It’s also quite difficult being organised with snacks when I am out, and I’m feeling a bit more sick again because I’m trying to eat fewer carbs and fruit which are often the things I am craving to deal with the sickness.  It’s a very tricky balance, but I’m going to try really hard to manage the diabetes with my diet as I did last time.  I really don’t want to have to take the medication which may make it less likely that I will be able to have a natural birth.  I know it’s early to be worrying about that but I can’t help it.  I have had lovely natural births with my last two babies, and felt completely normal straight afterwards instead of feeling like I’ve been in a car crash.  I can only hope I will be so lucky again.